Every night ...I suffer a battle

My pillow and Your shoulder

My pillow keeps saying:

Oh poor girl … come rest your head on my lap

I’ll caress your hair... smell your scent

Open the dream gate

You’ll be there with him

To walk, talk, flirt, love…

You can do the impossible

Sin and pray

Love who hates

Fly high

…

Your shoulder whispers:

Dreams will always be dreams

Rest your head so I can kiss your eyes

Embrace your soul and hear your breath

Let me shape your thoughts

So when you’ll surrender to your pillow

I’ll be making your dream

I’m your reality and your dream

…

Every night … I suffer this battle

…

..Suz ..

Tell me...Did you find the way to kill me inside of you...

I didn’t yet...

Maybe I managed to stop the breeding of your need

But you still exist…

Your seeds are deep inside… Unreachable in my darkness

Too weak to dig any further…I choose to hold the search

Just hang around till you show me the way…

Your way

.. Suz ..

...

Your eyes apologize way better than you do

…

I’d rather stay and fight with you...

Than go and make love to another

...

 12 years already !!

When it's Our love it never varies

19/12/1994

...

..Suz..

They said dreaming makes your life better

They said dreaming can open up your mind

They said dreaming can add a spice to your days

But

They never said how hard it is to wake up from a dream

They never said how ugly and cold the real world can be

They never said how solo you will be when you face your destiny

…

I never dared to dream

I knew that it’s not for me

Not for the type of which I belong

I always knew that people who dream

Are the people who dare to make their dreams come true…

It was never my game… neither my call

Until what happened this fall

…

.. Suz ..

Escape

Fly away

Get out of my body

This walking death machine

Like a countdown timer

Reducing life into seconds

Burning days

Consuming Youth

I wanna wear it out

Leave this corpse

 Break free

Let me go

Show me the way

Ease my soul

Open a window

Let there be Light

.. Suz ..

Let me love you

In front of a mirror

This way our pleasures

Will simply be triple

Let me embrace you

And look at the reflection

To carry the illusion

And print the impression

Let me undress you

And gaze into your flesh

To see how a scent

Wears your skin so fresh

Let me taste you

With the awaken beast

Like an Octopus preying

On his precious feast

Let us make love

And see us make love

Let the mirror watch

Till we become her image

She’ll sweat

She’ll drip

She’ll sigh

 And we’ll …

.. Suz ..

The silky reddish and blind snake

So smooth, tender with a velvet coat

Have drawn the pattern of my nights

Wetting my skin with the liquor of life

Tasting the flesh on my shivering bones

Molding the curves of my provoked hills

Your tongue have had me from the first round

Leaving me exhausted and consumed

Asking for mercy to soak my dried up soul

.. Suz ..

Too many of You

I’m lost

I used to crash on You

And then on You

And later on You

And now on You

I want all of You

In the same time

That I am about to loose You

I am so selfish

Can’t make up my mind

To choose just You

Maybe soon a new You will catch my breath

What to do then???

I guess it’ll be the biggest You club ever

Join the club

.. Suz ..

For

Those forbidden thoughts

These sinful feelings

That seductive smile

…

Every night

I pass through walls to

Reach your side

Grasp the scent

Feel the skin

Taste the man

Wake the beast

Hear the roar

Swallow the liquor

Attain oblivion

…

For

Those forbidden thoughts

These sinful feelings

That seductive smile

.. Suz ..

Every morning

I wait for your rose

Your Red Rose

I sit and stare at the nothing

I smile at faces but recognize no one

The blood in my cheeks is burning my face

I try to breath but the walls are moving

Like sand pearls I sink in the time machine

All I can do is Wait

For your Red Rose

Every morning

..Suz ..

إلى من سار طويلاً على شواطئ العلم

و لفحته شمس المعرفة

فأضحى برونزياً جذاباً و لا أروع

إلى من بلل قدميه بأمواج الأجيال المتلاحقة

و شيد من الرمال صرحاً

و نظم فيه  صفوفاً و رص مقاعدا

إلى من قاد مراكب القمح والنبيذ

ليطعم العقول و يروي النفوس

فترفع كؤوس النصرعاليةً و تزهر شقائق النعمان

إلى من صمد في وجه الأعاصير و التقلبات المزاجية

و ثبت أوتاده في صخور معتقداته

و ظل ضاحكاً مازحاً يرد العواصف تباعا

إلى من راقب المد و الجزر مئات المرات

لا بل الآف المرات حتى أصبح قمراً

يصنع المد و الجزر على طريقته

إلى من آنغمس في دنيا النور

و أعطى من روحه و عقله و جسده

فسقط منه ظله و تناثر في قلوب محبيه

ها نحن اليوم يا مصباحنا الغالي

 قد جمعناه و حفظناه  بماء الذهب غطسناه

لنعيده إليك يا أيها المعلم الكبير.

I shuffled the cards

The tarot Lady looked into my eyes

I picked 5 different ones

She opened them...Took a deep breath

Looked again into my eyes

 & she said...

What is done is done

You can never go back in time

Let it go

Please

You can’t change it

Escape from this prison

Stop looking back

Take a walk with yourself

Sort your issues out

Embrace your soul

Nothing is worth the sadness in your eyes

The glow has vanished

Such a sad face

What for

…

She smiled

Looked into my eyes again

It’s enough for now…

She closed the curtains

Left me alone

Just me and my sadness

….

..Suz ..

Today I got tiny drops

Straight to freshen up the gardenias

A bit of sun

A breeze of life

You can smell their scent

It’s swelling and blooming

With every move I take

Every smile I wear

Emmmmmmm

.. Suz ..

Empty

Like this vase

Waiting for flowers to get filled

Full of waiting

Time a killing machine

Smashing big time

The leftovers of me

Sitting here

Maybe there

Staring at the anything

Seeing the same nothing

Who cares anyway?

The damn clock

Ticking

Ticking

Ticking

Everything is still

Except for that damn timepiece

I promise I’ll smash it down

Break it into million pieces

Then dusting it away

Throw it in the endless doomster

Maybe I’ll get a couple of laughs

Then the ultimate

Silence

..Suz ..